Cancer
My Experience With Cancer
We all hear from time to time that someone in the family or your close frined had cancer and how this effected his life and how other people felt sorry and showed their feeling to him or her.. But how can we deal with this situation…!!
I will tell you about my self because I lived it … This is my story
Ovarian Cancer
I’m Besma single taking care of my parents.. and I’m very happy with my life… but one day my life changed .. my body gave me a sign and that was bleeding I went to my doctor and she told me everything is fine after doing some tests.. she told me maybe you are under strest this effects too .. but if you had the same sings we have to act…
Things went well with me .. after few months I had the same sings… I run this time to my doctor but again my tests showed nothing .. my doctor suspected and she let me under medication… after explaining some facts to me.. she started with hormones.. as the first step with monthly checkups.. and all that my tests showed I’m clear…
After four months with my monthly check ups it started to show I had ovary cancer but that day it was the most terrifying day to me.. first of all I was alone.. and when the doctor told me I have a cancer first I said (ok what shall I do..) may be I didn’t understand my situation at first I took everything easy or may be I was under shock couldn’t believe my doctor .. The Doctor ordered her nurse to be with me to do some more tests .. After finshing my test the nurse and the whole team were praying for me and telling me to take things easy.. at this moment I collapsed.. couldn’t control my rolling tears felling sorry for my self…and the most painful think is feeling sorry for my mum and dad.. what they will do after I’m gone… who will take care of them… how they will take the news… their only daughter had cancer… and thinking this is it.. I will die.. I had a long walk back home couldn’t return to home in this situation…I have been betrayeded from my own body.. You can’t imagine my feelings at this moment… I felt there is a huge gap between my self and my own body.. my whole life came in front of me like a film.. my childhood.. my family.. my friends…
My mum is waiting for me now … waiting for the results…
It was raining… I felt haven is crying … its really sad sad situation..
I reached home my mum was watching the rain and waiting for me… as soon as I arrived she open the door for me with her hard foot steps depending on her walking stick… I was all wet from the rain…. And she looked into my eyes and said whats wrong with you dear…
Oh mum nothing couldn’t find a taxi and I had to walk back home under the rain…
Are you sure…!
Yes Mum everything is fine… my tests are clear…
Thank God.. I really was worried about you… Sorry dear I really wished to be with you
I couldn’t make an eye contact with my mum any more… I know she will read my eyes…
I told my brothers if things went wrong at least they will take care of it.. but my brothers told me (Don’t worry its nothing if things went bad you can always make operation .. Don’t worry everything will be fine) they gave me hope which everyone should do to people who get this disease.. Help these ones.. by giving them strength and not showing that you are sorry for them..
I toke everything easy since then.. I have to act normally infort of my father and mother.. I kept my spirits high never thought about it.. and once you do that the power of your body will fight it too. don’t let the sad feelings come over you.. always always keep your hopes high..
I finished one year under medication… The doctor told me I can’t keep you under medication we have to stop and wait and make tests every month if the tumor start getting bigger we will do right away operation… I made up my mind to keep strong and will fight my fears..
Believe it or not after three months.. I went for my tests and my big surprise its gone…
My tests showed nothing it disappear.. I got over it… I’m cancer free now..
Since then I do my checkups every six months and till now I’m clear…
Besma
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